Routines or Bust
Christmas Day was lovely yet very exhausting. Part of me wonders whether I should have forgotten holiday traditions and stuck with Jim’s daily schedule. Even though, Jim himself was keen on keeping the traditions alive. Jim felt that I was eager to unwrap gifts, so he rushed through his morning routine to come out …. Read More
Since Last Christmas
Last Christmas, I watched Jim open his gifts and realized that it would be the last holiday with him. This year, I’m grateful for what we still have. He’s not as incapacitated as I predicted. He’s still charming and witty and has the same personality for the most part even though, he’s no where …. Read More
Separating The Person From The Disease
I had a bit of a boost yesterday. I had to go to the office to pick up something and was talking to the girls. It was a good day because during this second wave of Covid19, I’ve been somewhat isolated and these days and Jim isn’t able to be the best conversationalist. One …. Read More
Moving At A Snail’s Pace
Going anywhere is excruciatingly these days. Jim has always been the guy who said that he’d rather be two hours early than two minutes late. Even though I hate being late as well, he used to get impatient with me because when he said he wanted to leave at 8, he meant be in …. Read More
Fools Paradise
Lying in bed at night I can almost pretend that our life is normal. Jim curls around me when I crawl under the covers and his arm is a comfortable weight as he holds me close. Just the two of us, skin to skin, intimate and peaceful together. This is what the caregiving books …. Read More
The Battle Of ‘Meh’
I thought I was immune. I’ve read enough to understand the risks, I’ve done due diligence to ensure it never happens to me and I’ve been trying to talk myself into getting my ass in gear and yet, I’m still falling into the pit. I hate calling it depression because to me, this does …. Read More
Please Don’t Leaf Me This Way
This past two weeks have been exhausting. All because of the leaves on the lawn. This has been an odd fall. The leaves on our big maple out front didn’t turn colour until Sunday, 1st of November and then it was overnight that the leaves changed and started to fall. By Wednesday, over half …. Read More
Managing Expectations
As Dementia progresses, consistency goes out of the window. It’s hard not to get frustrated. Some days, our discussions stick, Jim gets irritated with me when I repeat directions because this time, he remembered the first time. Other days, I feel like a broken record. Today, Jim had a good morning. He seemed sharp …. Read More
Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist and Funeral Planning
Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist was a new TV show this year and it looked like a fun premise and God knows we all need a little lift to our spirits every once in a while. The show is about Zoey, a woman in her early 30s who is fearful that her headaches are a sign that …. Read More
Remember/Rediscover – Who you Are
One of the things the world seems to have screwed up in the past few decades is the idea that romantic love means that your person, is the only person you will ever need. That they will fit you like a glove and you’ll never want for anything or anyone else. If your partner …. Read More