I’m not sure if it’s the aftermath of the incredibly hot temperatures we had last weekend, or just a new phase of dementia.

Jim seems lost this week.

Outwardly I don’t see much different in the way he remembers things or navigates through his day. Inwardly though he seems to be unsure/lost. As if he’s reached a fork in the path and not only doesn’t know which way to go, but he’s forgotten which way he came. It’s been consistent over the past few days.

He still sticks to his daily routine, but seems to constantly question whether he’s doing it right. He hesitates and looks confused most of the day.

He used to be the type A, ask questions later type of guy and now it seems like he’s afraid to get up from his chair.

Some things he’s good with. like remembering to get eyedrops and medication (he’s actually more likely to double dose than forget). Then, I tell him I’m going to sit on the deck and three minutes later he’s at the door asking me if I’m okay? Will I be long? Do I need anything?

It’s so tricky to help him maintain his independence when he’s so unsure of himself.

It’s hard to help him because his mind can’t absorb half of what I’m saying. Which just leaves him in a fog of half understood words and self-doubt.

I wouldn’t wish dementia on my worse enemy.